Sunday, June 22, 2008 ♥
I feel the blues kicking in. I think this marks the end of holidays and the end of all those surreal enjoyments that I had in the past 2 weeks. My whole world feels like it's whirling around, the whole city's sleepy and your brain can't function.
It's like you feel like you're in a dream. Everything so blur and misty yet you know it's real. Jo says there's no time to feel blue cos' we have work to do. But, fuck it. I can't do a single work now. It's even more pathetic cos' I don't even have the time to cry. I'll find comfort somewhere on my sofa or something. At least hang on to my world while reality seeps in. Holding onto my world as I absorb the fact that our lives may be not be the same again. The fact that both of us sharing a life will be history. The fact that we will be leading separate lives.
Whatever so, it's annoying cos' it's worrying me so much that it will be detrimental to our relationship. As much as we have already smoothen out all those nitty-gritty, the issue of time is the one getting on our nerves. Then again, I'm such a emotional soul. For the next half a year, I'll be missing the past half. Those solitary moments we have alone. Those days when we belong to each other only. When we could have fun and fuck cared the rest of the world. So, when is it gonna happen again? We said we'll solve things as they come. But can we really do it?

Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it but you can use it. You can't keep it but you can spend it. But once it's lost, you can never get it back. Seems like I'll need time to teach me how to have my dinner alone again.