Knowing too much ain't that good at times. Ignorance is bliss. But to start being ignorant or feigning ignorance is irritating. Life's not always about oneself yet most of the human beings live for themselves and in their own world. What's importance worth when you're the only one acknowledging it? I don't think that's called importance anymore, I call it selfishness. It takes a million lies to cover ONE lie. And it will hurt a million times MORE to find out all those lies instead of finding out just ONE lie. Again, the tension of opposites.

BF JEFF: Hello my king, I love you so deeply too. You make me feel like the most blissful soul on planet earth. You make me feel like I'm the most significant person in your life. And it's nice to know I'm the only other girl that you care for the most and treats the best other than your younger sister. Though we crap alot about meat sticks and cream pies, we both know that our relationship is not as superficial as how some perceives it to be.

It's not about having fun, it's not about having someone around for company, it's not about physicality, in other words, sex. It's about finally finding a soulmate. Someone whom I don't mind him knowing every single little details about me. Someone I don't mind sharing my stupid childish random thoughts, my super duper throw-face past because he will not laugh at me. Instead, he'll listen patiently or nod in acceptance that this is who I am and my past is what makes me Clare now. And you did it. You make me feel so comfortable around you cos' you love me for who I am and not who you want me to be. And that's about all I've been asking for. (If you remember the first time you asked me on msn what if you fall in love serious with me.) This has been my reply and it will always be.

I'll continue playing my part to make you feel like you're the most blissful soul on planet earth other than me. Smile more instead of being frustrated over stuff cos' you said my smile never fails to keep you going. Continue living the sweet life we're having now. Like, sitting through long, chilly bus rides together, sharing one super big jacket, plugged with our individual headphones
and texting each other diabetic and stupid stuff though we're just beside each other. Both of us grinning from ear to ear, giggling like some high school girls, looking like two sillyheads. And even when I'm not beside you, I'll make sure you smile that silly-ly at your phone at my text, make sure you laugh at some stupid crap that I've said though you're all alone on the bus or walking to somewhere or wherever. I wanna let you and the whole world around you know that you're loved. And what can feel better than knowing that you're being loved and appreciated that much by someone whom you treat as your own significant other?

What's between us, will be between us. Who cares about superficial opinions when we both know what we have between you and me? Loves, anytime with you is just simply great too!

Stars fade but I'll linger around.