Sunday, April 01, 2007 ♥
regret? there is no end to it. you can never find the beginning of the chain that brought us from there to here. should you regret the whole chain, the air in between, or each link separately as if you could uncouple them? do you regret the beginning which ended so badly or the ending itself?
the past is always the most difficult thing to forget. as things comes back into your mind, you switch into a nostalgic mode. you find yourself regretting things that you've done, things that you've not done, things that you've missed and things that missed you.
it's hard not to be yourself. it's hard to endure the pain. it's tiring to smile and be happy everyday when you're not. it's hard to say 'i'm okay' when you know you're weeping inside and tears are gonna fall outside. it's stupid to feel obliged when you're not supposed to. stupid to feel guilty over something that's not your fault.
yet we've come back to the root of all these. the root of regret. it stems from feelings, humanistic nature, love .
the bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
here i am, shedding tears over a grave where our relationship lies beneath
ps: this post is not directed to my current r/s