its 21st december 2006 . i'll rmb this date for life. nicky passed away this morning. my good old dog cum friend. always cry to him whenever i'm down and he never fails to give me warmth. i'll have nobody to cry to at home anymore. sighs. he was struggling for the past few months. i know. it's hard on him. but it's harder on us to opt for euthanasia. so we didnt. at least he passed away naturally, in his own home that he stayed throughout his life, on his fave 'snoopy' mat, wrapped up in his fave green blanket.

this was how frail he was before he died. sighs. 17 years 9 months old dog. daddy woke up at 8 and found out that he wasn't breathing. everyone woke up. daddy wrapped him up in his fave green blanket and lay his fave 'snoopy' mat in a cardboard box and lay nicky in it. daddy even wrapped it up. sighs. can't imagine my good dog, my good friend in this small lil box. fuck.i hate this feeling of losing something so important. something that was with you for your whole life and you didn't realise it's existence is so important until it's gone. okay fuck. my tears gonna flow non stop again. i'll blog again. not in a very good mood to blog now. =x
anyway, nicky was sent to mount pleasant animal hospital for cremation this morning.
ps: nicky, wherever you are, i hope that you'll be happy. we all love you very much. yes. my one and only pet dog. loves & misses for life.