Sunday, October 01, 2006 ♥
lets make it short :
i jus woke up
i'm not well
i got high and lost my senses last nite
i spouted nonsense
i forgot wat i did in fact .
i'm tired now , i dont wanna continue all this nonsense
i reprimand myself for being so nice
i hate myself for givin in so much
i blame myself for the pain that i feel
i feel taken for granted
i feel unimportant
i dont feel my existence
i'm givin myself time to find myself back
i need a chance to prove to myself that i'm still the strong girl i used to be
i'm not gonna meet him
i'm not (maybe) even gonna initiate talkin to him
i just wanna stay here and think
i gonna stay here and wait
i gonna see what he'll do (but i doubt he'll do anythin)
i feel blank.
fuck